like alice in the looking glass

i ain't no liar, ho

i just wrote this in 5 seconds
it sucks

words pour out of your mouth, but they don't stand for much
telling lies you can keep, promises you can't
why did i ever believe it?
i always want what i can't touch
a hologram of love
i play you up in my head to be 100 feet tall
a statue erected to display the great qualities you hold
you weren't the best or the worst, but my favorite by far
but who knows what you do state lines away in the mask of the stars
you won't be my remedy note or even my melody of a cure
you'll be the chord that makes me fall

can i ever answer what will make me happy?
right now i wish that "what" would be you
but time & time again, i get let-down, proven right all along
shown that this will only ever be a wish, a hope
you'll always be a wistful line in a song
she obviously has more to offer than i ever will

out of chance, out of luck we exchanged glances
we met
in the dark corner of that building where all the kids went
on that sad rainy day when i had almost lost hope
images turned hazy, reality has set in
we told stories of past & present, covered the town lit by yellow & black
i thought this could be something different..
now the only thought that runs around is
the one asking why can't things be different?
yesterday you gave me a blaze of hope
with your "what-if's" and "i wishes"
maybe when you return in what seems like a decade
the snow will provide a perfect setting for chance

Soooooo

I'm offically getting my septum pierced.
Sometime this week.
Sweet.

I miss my monroe, but stupid places to work around here already bitch enough about ym nose.
Same goes for my lip, or anything else for that matter.


As soon as I get my ass payed, I'm getting this beauty touched up:



And something resembling this sexy bitch:





I'm leabing more towards chest area over back now, but maybe more to the sides & not so much in the middle. Still stuck between outline & greyscale or hints of color tho. I do think I want it more classic & less new-school-ish though.

There's like 6-7 others that I want, but currently being on the poor list I guess I'll hafta wait it out.
Hey.
At least I havea job now.


Peace, Love, & Cocoa Puffs
Alli

this is my WISH LIST
i did this maily becaise these types of things are fun to do
at 2am
when you're bored & have no life

oh heyyy..


These will be purchased with my next pay check. Orgasmic.





I'm going to be eating my food with these:



Out of these:



Hella zebra rug!



These things will be on my walls:










And I'll be wearing these:




















And Finally...

This will be on my shoulder:



These will be in my earss:



And this bitch will be making me my coffee:



Giving me my beverage of choice:



And sewing all my shit:




I LOVE LOOKING AT THINGS

So I love how I made this new LJ to use instead of my other one [for various reasons you MAY know about if you know me at all] but then I fell out of touch.

I recently decided that I needed this as an outlet again.
So if you see like 907482472 posts coming from me in the next several days, that's be why.


<3<3
Alli

So I made a new LJ because my other one was messed up, & well, this was just easier so yeah.

Tonight we're going to Cafe Capri for Mel's birthday then probably going out after, so it should be fun night #3 in a row for me. Sweet.
Last night was hilarious. I met a cop that used the word "sassy" for crying out loud. He did tell me I was a "smart sister" however, so I guess he's on my Christmas card list.

So I'm really happy to be back up here but also at the same time I'm sad & wish I were still at home. I know I know I'm a weirdo. I always feel like I should be doing something else besides college, but who knows what that is all supposed to mean. At least I have Krystal & Melanie to keep me sane. Hopefully I'll meet some new people this year that aren't shady. That would be great for once please. & I need to get out more & have more fun...who would've thought a college student would need to do that, eh?

Anywho I've decided that I'm in love with Meg & Dia right now. & listen to them over & over.
Also Pride & Prejudice might just be the best movie in life. But one question...Where the eff is MY Mr. Darcy?!
Yeah, I said it. I'm pretty much convinced right now that I'll never find anybody to love me & I'll always be the "single friend". I guess there's a lot worse things that could happen tho.

I need to motivate myself to get things done today so wish me luck.
Tootaloos for now,
Alli